Monday, March 25, 2013

Email 3/25/13

Hello everyone,

I´m sorry but this email is looking to be a short one. Not because I want it to be, but mostly because of the content. The last few weeks we really have been struggling in our area. Sometimes it’s a little hard for me to accept. Being a Zone leader and having so much experience as a missionary, you would think that it should be easy for me to baptize every week and to be consistent. I don´t know why and I haven´t found the source as to our trouble here in our area, but we just can´t seem to get any progress out of anyone. Every week we go out and work and coordinate with the members and find people and put them with a baptismal date and all that jazz, but in the end, really no one wants to change. It was really hitting my companion hard this last week because he felt that we weren’t doing anything, that we were just wasting our time. I told him that we weren´t wasting our time. That we were doing the right thing in inviting others to come unto Christ and that we just have to learn that everyone has their agency. I feel that now in my mission I am progressing the most because I am learning to become more like Christ is. There is always that classic saying that in trials and pain one comes to know a man of angustia and pain. I have made a promise to myself to make these last 2 months the happiest that I can possibly make them. The Zone is doing awesome. This month we have baptized 25 in total and we have tons of people lined up to get baptized this next month. All of the missionaries are happy and they just love the work. We are leading them in every way and helping them become the best that they can be. I feel that the Lord is guiding me and that He is helping me become better through all my experiences.

This Sunday I was sitting during the sacrament and really had an experience that fortified my faith. There was a youth that was talking about being more humble. She really is just a simple 16 year old girl that has great intentions to do the will of God. She isn´t super super profound in her talk but it helped me come to realize the power that the Lord has in our lives. She talked about that we ought less to pay attention to our own knowledge and capability and recognize more the greatness of God and our dependence on him. Every single person in the world from the smartest to the poorest, from the more popular to the hermit, from the leader to the follower, we all have a great reliance on him. In his eyes we are all equal. I think that is why I love the temple so much. Sitting in the Celestial Room; I can´t see who is rich, smart, poor, or famous. Everyone has been made one in His eyes. I pray that the Lord can give me those eyes to see things in His way, to be able to see all our brothers and sisters the same. That is also how we need to see ourselves. We often times beat up ourselves for not being the best or that we aren´t as capable as others are, so we have the desire to be like someone else. I often times have experiences with people here in Paraguay when I tell them that I want to be a musician. They very very rapidly ask me who I want to be like, who I want to sing like and questions regarding that. I usually ponder and then decide to answer them. That really I don´t want to be like anyone. I want to be me. The Lord has given me a talent and I want to use it how he wants me to. We all have a destiny to follow. As we stay focused on the things that are more important we find true happiness that come through being established on principles of good and truth.

Another sweet spiritual experience that I had was after a lesson when we taught a guy that didn´t understand hardly any Spanish at all and we struggled to teach him in Guaraní,  we invited him to be baptized and he just slammed us and so in the end we kind of left a little bummed. After being able to reflect on the lesson I felt a sweet feeling of happiness knowing that I have the truth in my life. A lot of the times we always try to focus on what we know, or how much knowledge we have. We ought less to focus on how much we know, and more on how we feel about it. So often after being a member for a good amount of time we often forget really how amazing the restored gospel principles are. Our soul really rejoices in the knowledge of the truth.

We are having some problems with a few missionaries in our zone;  more in the aspect that they really aren´t willing to invite people to be baptized. I think that this has been a constant fight for many many missionaries. They are always afraid to invite people. They think that they aren´t really ready or that they aren´t going to say yes. We talked to them about not being the judges. There is a scripture in Doctrine and Covenants that talks about how every man, women and child that is old enough, must be baptized. We told them that we as missionaries are not here to judge people if they are capable of enduring to the end, or if they shouldn´t be baptized. We have been commanded by the Lord that we must invite ALL our brothers and sisters to take this step. I think that the meeting that we had with them went very well. We will see how their week goes out the next week.

I´m happy!! I´m so tired, but I’m so happy. Reading some of the events in my journal from the last year I have really come to see how much I have been growing and how much I have come to be a soldier of the Lord in proclaiming His gospel. I love it. I love you all.

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Elder Beatty

Monday, March 18, 2013

Email 3/18/13

2013.Mar.18
This week I’m not gonna lie seemed to just crawl by. It all started out on Tuesday. We did divisions with the Assistants and we were learning more about how the mission is going and what the president is wanting us to change as a zone. It’s a little frustrating at times because we have a super super super huge zone and the overall space of the zone is fairly large. We have been working with the District leaders a ton to try and help them understand what they are suppose to do as leaders in guiding their districts. One of the Districts leaders is my old Companion from CDE Elder Martinez. He is doing well and we are on the same page as far as what we want to accomplish. The other 2 district leaders are new and they are super excited for what their districts can accomplish but still they are learning as far as what they are supposed to do as District leaders. The Assistants told me that there are TONS of new leaders in the mission and that it’s not just something that we are struggling from. They said that in the next 3 changes we have a total of 60 missionaries going home and a good majority of them are district and Zone leaders and so right now they are trying to get the new leaders capacitated as to what they are supposed to be doing. It’s not a bad thing to have a change in leadership because it always brings in new ideas, but the mission is going a little down because of all the NEW leaders that we have. It’s not that they are bad leaders; it’s just that they are still learning how to do it. We are really trying to help our district leaders become the best in the mission so that they can have confidence in their own ability to receive revelation for their missionaries and to help them stay focused and happy. We are progressing, maybe not as fast as I would like, but we are progressing.

Also I wanted to thank everyone for the birthday wishes. I had a great birthday. We were doing divisions and it really just started to pour the rain. Like it wasn´t one of those little normal rains that we get every so often. It was one of those pouring rains that just seem to get everything wet no matter how safe that you think you are. We Taught a good amount of lessons and we found a really really cool family that was going to come to church yesterday, but their baby son got sick and so they couldn´t come. We are going to keep working super hard to make sure that they keep progressing towards their baptismal date. I had a good birthday. A lot of people where giving me cake and at the end of the day Elder Knudsen told me that my area was the bomb and that he didn´t want to leave because of all the super legit members and investigators we had. hahaha This whole week we never really had a day that was super super amazing. We just kept chuggin things out and working hard every single day. Sometimes I feel like I am playing a football game we just get 3 or 2 yards every single play. It’s a cloud of dust and then 3 yards, another cloud of dust and then 3 yards. It’s a progression, but it’s one that isn´t very fun. hahaha Nah we have our moments when we laugh and have a good time. Elder Velasquez is a good missionary and is really focused on what he wants. Sometimes I feel that he thinks that I´m not the type of missionary that he thinks a zone leader should be, super strict, direct with the missionaries, chastising. I feel that we are progressing as a companionship, but he still has a lot to learn about being a leader and changing his attitude according to the situation that presents itself. I have been sharing with him some of the leadership stuff I learned before the mission. It’s been helping a little; we will see what happens in the future.

We are having some problems with 2 of our investigators in that they want to get baptized so bad, they have all their lessons and they have all their assistance at church but in the end it all comes down to problems with their spouse. Their spouse doesn´t want to get married or doesn´t want to support then in their decisions. It’s been really hard for me to work with them because they haven´t formed a great relationship in their own personal family. They don´t want to accept that they have a comment even after having 4 kids with their spouse. We have been inviting them to read the BOM and to Pray and all that jazz but they just don´t want to do it. It’s been hard to keep our investigators from losing their hope for their spouses. They have been trying to keep on a happy face and trying to keep coming to church and all that jazz, but in the end they know that they aren´t members yet and that they are losing blessings from living in sin. We are really working with the members to make sure that they can maintain their progress in the gospel, but things are getting rough. It’s one of those times when I have to accept that others have their free agency. It seems that we have countless experiences with these problems. Every single time it seems like a surprise to us. You think that we would learn how to handle situations like this. But I guess it just goes to show how much we have come to love these people that we want them to keep progressing, but there are just little things that are stopping them from taking that progress of baptism. Keep them in your prayers, they need it.

We were sharing with a member the other day and we were watching a video from the Mormon messages and it was talking about seeing the best in people and seeing how they can become instead of how they are right now. The man on the video said something that is sooo true. He said that the world is cruel sometimes and we tend to react badly to the things that happen to us. We tend to react in the way that is most easier, or to get mad, or to blame. But in the end that there are more ways to be good, than to be bad. But, that doesn´t make it any easier. We have to make that decision now to do the right thing or to say the right thing when everything seems to be going down in the dumps. I have a huge testimony about that. Sometimes as a missionary so many bad things happen to us that it’s not even funny. An investigator doesn´t read, or doesn´t come to church, or pray. Or people just deny us and don´t let us teach them, or our companions aren´t what we really want them to be. And the thing we do most of the time is react in a negative way. Its sooooo easy. But in the end I have learned that true happiness comes when we stay focused on the goal of who we are trying to become. We are true followers of Christ and we will continue to follow his footsteps. It’s not going to be easy, but it will be worth it. I know that this is true and I’m sure that you do to. Sometimes we just have to be reminded about what is more important.

I´m super grateful for the gospel. it is the things that brings us peace and joy. I know that Satan is always trying to sneak in and make us take a fallen path. Sometimes it seems so appealing or harmless what he wants us to do but in the end we can see that it isn´t worth it. Satan works hard to make us as missionaries depressed and to feel like what we do doesn´t matter or that we aren´t having any success. But I know that God is happy with every single one of His missionaries for their work and their effort. Sometimes when we aren´t having success we seem to start blaming ourselves and that we aren´t good enough that’s why God isn´t blessing us with baptisms. I know its not like that. God is so thankful and happy for us His missionaries. I have grown and developed into someone totally different. I am so thankful for the opportunity that the Lord gave me to really come to know who He is, and what His purpose is. I AM HIS REPRESENTATIVE, AND I LOVE IT. I love you all and hope you have a super awesome week, because I will be.

Rohaihu haé che familia.

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Elder Beatty

Monday, March 11, 2013

Email 3/11/13

HELLO EVERYONE.
Thanks for the birthday wishes!
Wow I feel so old. We have been having a joke between all the missionaries in that I am just the super old fart in the mission now. Even the sister missionaries start jumping in on it but then I just have to remind them that really they are a lot older than I am haha its all fun in the end we get a few good laughs out of it. We are just moving along and having to work, work, work. I won´t really be able to rest and have fun on my birthday because we are going to have to do some divisions with the assistants and I will be going to their area, but it’s all good. I will be able to just smile away and everyone will be super confused as to how this missionary is so happy.

This week was a little bit more of a test for me and my companion. We are still struggling with finding some good people that are actually going to progress. We had a huge miracle that happened yesterday in church. We were sitting there and we were getting ready to take the sacrament and a couple walk in from outside so I grabbed my companion and pulled him out right when they were getting ready to take the sacrament. We started talking to the couple and they had come from Cuidad Del Este and they were sharing with the missionaries. They were going to get baptized but they just moved from CDE to here in Nemby. Wow. They couldn´t stay for all of the church but they were just curious and wanted to know where the new building was that they wanted to come to. The dad is from Italy and the mom is Paraguayan. They were both super super nice. I guess the dad just got mugged the night before when he was in Fernando de la Mora and he was pretty beaten up but he was smiling and just glad to see his friends the missionaries. We are going to start pàssing by for them this week and we are hoping to get them baptized the next week. We are going to have to help the dad stop smoking but he said that he has gone down from 3 to 1 pack a day. So I bet we can give him that finally push to help him stop smoking. It was a great miracle that helped us raise our spirits from the problems that we had that week.

So other news as to what had happened this week is that on Tuesday we had a meeting with all the missionaries in the zone or 28 missionaries and President Agazzani gave us a call and told us that he was going to be coming and participating in the activity with his wife. AHHHH Our main focus in the meeting was to help the missionaries understand that they need to make changes in their attitudes so that they can complete with the vision of baptizing more people. We had a sweet activity that I learned from the Leadership Academy that focused on having a vision and putting goals and plans and executing the plans to complete the vision. It was a really really good activity and all of the missionaries said it was fun and edifying. During the meeting it was a little harsh because we have the biggest zone of missionaries and we aren´t baptizing enough people. President got up and invited everyone to repent and to change how they look at their areas and their investigators. In the end it was a good meeting. A lot of the missionaries were excited to leave to have a change in their vision. We are hoping to start working more with the district leaders so that we can maintain that attitude during the whole month and not let it die out. It has proven quite the challenge trying to make sure that 28 missionaries keep on baptizing but I have learned a lot about how to be a good leader; a leader that inspires and motivates through example and love. It’s been hard to get to this point because sometimes it’s just soooo easy to just tell missionaries to work harder, and then they get frustrated with you and they don´t want to follow. Sometimes I have to meditate really what I need to do to help a specific companionship. It’s always cool in those moments because the Spirit becomes our guide.

We traveled like crazy this week because the missionaries had a ton of surprise baptisms so we are just running around like crazy doing interviews. After being here in Nemby and having to direct so many missionaries I have learned a very very powerful lesson with being a missionary. It’s not just a matter of doing missionary work and having success. In the end it’s trying to become a missionary of Christ. Loving the people as He loves, giving as He gives, teaching as He teaches, and being guided as He was. It’s been a real challenge. After I completed a year in the mission I haven´t really learned much more in aspect of doing the missionary work, but for the last 10 months I feel like I have been in a greater learning channel and that is to become a missionary like Christ. It’s hard. But in the end it is what brings more satisfaction and joy in the work. I may be having trials and other problems with the work but I feel like it’s because the Lord wants me to become more like He is. I think that that is what matters most. We will be more able to help others as we raise our own possibilities. I love the mission. I thank you all for your birthday wishes and for your prayers. I love you all and hope that you have a super awesome week.

Elder Beatty

Monday, March 4, 2013

Email 3/4/13

Hello everyone,

The time just seems to pass by faster and faster. This week was still a tough one but really in comparison with the week before I feel much more confident in what the Lord has done to help us. Yeah I know that my last letter was a little low and depressing but I am looking at it more like a refiner´s fire. We go through problems and difficulties so that we can learn to rely on the Lord and what He can do for us. A lot of times we as members believe in Christ, that He exists and that He is a person. But, we often times forget to believe Christ, or in other words, believe in His power to heal, to free, to help, and to save. I have really gained a personal testimony of that power. Not only by seeing it work in the lives of other people. Missionary work is hard. Sometimes we joke around when we are with lots of other missionaries about what we thought of the mission before we got here. Oh dang its going to be so easy. Go out, learn a new language, eat some cool new food, see some crazy things, teach some people, and baptize. Yeah good luck. Really in the end missionary work comes down to what it is called..... WORK..... It’s not easy. And it wasn´t meant to be easy. But in the end it is supposed to help us learn to believe Christ. As we continue through our trials humbly and doing the will of the Lord, we are strengthened. We find peace that comes from an everlasting fountain of truth and light. Yeah things aren’t getting any easier here in our area but I am becoming stronger. Its comes down to a quote that I have written in the front of my agenda.

“That which we persist in doing becomes easier for us to do, not that the nature of the thing itself has changed, but that our power to do is increased.”
Ralph Waldo Emerson

I can´t even begin to describe how this statement is true. Not just in a worldly sense but also in a spiritual sense. If we have problems with the commandments and we try and try and pray and do all we can to overcome our problems, the Lord will bless us and strengthen us so that we can have the power to overcome our problems. Try reading the last verse of 1st Nephi the last paragraph. It gives a great description of what I just explained but it is scripture.

Other than that very emotional part of my letter we have been keeping rather busy with other zone leader part missionary stuff. This week we had changes. It’s looking like I am going to stay in my area for another change and work with Elder Velasquez. He is a good missionary and really wants to see more success. He is overall happy most of the time and is very flexible in things to change. We are going to change a few things in how we are working this change but I feel that we are going to really have a successful change together. We had a good amount of changes in the Zone. We got 2 more missionaries so that brings us to 28 missionaries in the zone. We have the largest zone that I have ever heard of….. ahhhhh. Those 2 more missionaries are being brought into Nemby. So we are going to have 6 missionaries in our ward. 2 Elders and 4 sisters. AHHHHHHH The ward is really excited to keep working and we are hoping to just explode Nemby. Other things that we had going on this week was that we did divisions. I went out of our area and worked in a small distinct little area. I would like you to imagine that little town off the movie “Cars”...Radiator Springs. Yeah it was like that. The missionaries that are out there are really good ones, but have been struggling finding people, hahah as you can imagine. We got out there and tore it up. We found 8 news and we put them all with fecha. We taught roughly 10 lessons. It was a little tough because there was a ton of people out there that only spoke Guarani and so we had some problems in teaching them. Really I don´t know if you can imagine trying to teach someone who only understands Guarani and I can only speak a little Guaraní. We talked about baptism. We would use lots and lots of pictures and hand motions, along with the limited 25 words in Guaraní that I know hahahaha We put them with a baptismal date and I don´t know how, but they went to church. hahahahah so that was just a great day. My comp and the other missionary didn´t have too much success in our area but it’s ok we just love looking for miracles.

We had another crazy day on Thursday we found out that a companionship had to be moved out of their house. And we had to do it in that moment. Wow we were running around like crazy trying to find some people to bring a truck and help move all the stuff as well as take out the air conditioning. In the end we got done around nine and we had to run home to get back before nine thirty. We got it all done but it sure was crazy. Other crazy stuff was that as we were sharing a little bit with a family, the dad is an X bishop, we were finishing up the lesson and the dad turned to me and grabbed my leg and told me that I was going to be a future apostle. Wow 2 people in two years telling me that I will be an apostle. Yeah Sure. hahah Those moments are always weird because you don´t want to laugh at their comment because they are being serious but it’s very very hard to be like yeah sure I’m going to be one. hahaha.
It’s just weird the stuff that goes down in the mission.

In the end we are doing good. We just keep moving along and keep trying to do the Lords will and to find His chosen people. I just love it here in the mission. It’s hard but it’s great…Just like a sugar cube. I love you all and hope that you have a super awesome week.

Elder Beatty